Feeling Stuck


Rocky Foundation

For those of you who have been following me the last 6 months. I have been on a serious weight loss journey. I have changed every aspect of my lifestyle.  I have never had to try so hard to lose weight. I was always a “skinny” girl.  I could eat whatever I wanted. not workout and not even gain a pound. I was only 118 pounds but completely out of shape.   My eating habits were poor, I was a fast food, soda addicted junkie and didn’t care because it didn’t show.  Then, I began to have the diva’s and all of those bad habits caught up to me.

With my first daughter, I gained 95 pounds. I know that is unheard of, I think mothers of multiples don’t even gain that much weight. I wasn’t pregnant with several children I was only carrying one little 6 pound 12 ounce baby girl.  Needless, to say the bag of size 4 jeans I packed to go home in did not even come up one of my thighs. I went home wearing my maternity pants. But I worked it off, I made it a full time job to lose the baby weight. I worked out 6 days a week for 3-4 hours a day and survived off of wheat grass and dew (just kidding).  I really don’t recommend that weight loss plan but it worked and 9 months later I had lost all of the pregnancy weight and was comfortably zipping up my size 4 and back to my drive thru hopping.



Another Weight loss Round

Then came my next little diva. I played it smart this time at least I thought I did. I went to a nutritionist twice a week and worked out until I was 7 and a half months pregnant.  Tallying in at a whopping 85 pounds weight gain when I went into the delivery room. Giving birth to my 9 pound, sweet little “Boo Bear.” Again, I went fast and furious into the weight loss but this time I breast fed so it made it a little easier. I had two little ones so that made working out a little harder.  So I bought the newest (at the time) Beach body workout series and got my “Slim in 6” tail in gear.  I couldn’t live off of wheat grass and dew this time because I was nursing so I did eat fairly healthy. It took a little longer to lose the weight because I didn’t have the ability to workout 6 days a week 3-4 hours a day and eat nothing so I was zipping up my size 4’s in about a year and half. (Still not a recommended weight loss plan).  Maintained my figure by running but I still had horrible eating habits. Toxic after toxic processed meals in my body daily.  I had also acquired a lethal sweet tooth and cupcakes had become a girls’ best friend.


Getting my Mojo Back

Then came diva number 3, six years later.  This time around I was unable to exercise because I was severely sick in my first trimester. Unknowingly it was the result of being pregnant with twins.  At 11 weeks (almost made it to my second trimester) I lost one of my twins and carried out the rest of my pregnancy in a depressed state. I was also bed ridden till I was 17 weeks and filled the void with any and every craving my heart desired.  I did do a little better on the weight gain this time around, weighing in at a 75 pound weight gain (I know not better at all). I added 20 pound to that in the first two months of my little ones’ life and began a different weight loss journey.

There was no sprint to the finish line this time go round. I didn’t have time, energy or resources with three little divas’. As the number on the scale grew my determination decreased. I thought I would be content with living the rest of my life heavier (clinically obese at this point). The thing that really was disheartening that when my baby girls was born I had changed our entire families lifestyle to clean eating but I did not change my portions and I did not add to my activity so it was all in vain.  It wasn’t until after my baby was one year old and a complete stranger asked me “when I was due” that I got a spark of determination to get my body back.  This time I vowed that I would not go back to my toxic ways, I would not work myself to exhaustion and stress.

This weight loss was going to be the old fashioned way, great nutrition and a great workout routine.  I am a very determined person so when I started on the journey I had a goal in mind. I hit the ground running losing 6 pounds in my first week. I think my body was just shocked that things were changing.  I had continued the clean eating journey but I had to cut the portion sizes and the way I was eating.  The workouts were something that I never did before. High, Intensity, Interval, Training had me huffing, puffing and sweating in as little as 20 minutes.  I began taking brisk walks and really doing more efficient workout. Then I did a 30 day cleanse. Its not the type of cleanse that you are thinking. This cleanse allowed me to eat but just on a lower level. I did not consume alcohol or sugar for 30 days and I fasted 1 day a week for the four weeks.  I also for the first time intentionally prayed everyday for 5-10 minutes for my body during this 30 days. I literally was getting all the toxins out of my mind, body and soul and my body was screaming the praises of all this goodness and I lost 10 pounds and 31 inches in a month.  I had never felt better and I was ready to take this weight loss to the next level. Then it happened. I got stuck!


What does stuck mean?

What does stuck mean? When I came back to reality-not cleansing, still clean eating, still working out world. My body just didn’t budge.  There were no more inch loss, no more weight loss, all the work none of the glory!  At first, I thought I have reached a plateau that happens just push through.  Then one month went by and only 2 pounds loss. Then the next month went by and no pounds no inches. Then I thought okay, maybe I am not doing what I was doing maybe I am consuming too many calories.  So, I kept food diaries, added another workout day but nothing other than a new full time job; Managing my weight loss. Tracking everything I put in my mouth, increasing my weight and giving every workout every bit of energy I possibly can. But still nothing. A plateau that I thought would last for a week or so is now carrying on to four months.  What do I do now? What have I done wrong?

Again, I brought it to God!  Intentionally praying for 30 days. Instead of a weight loss freedom something different has been happening I have been assessing and checking my mental “baggage” or weight. I think I am heavier mentally than I am physically more so than I thought.  My weight loss has not progressed but I know the last 30 days I have been growing stronger and stronger in the Lord.  I know that this plateau-(which at this point I am not sure if you can call it that) is for a growth in other aspects of my life.  In the last few months I have desperately wanted God to change my physical situations but it wasn’t until the last few days that I realized that God wants this situation to change me. Alot, of my problem is my body image- I have the image of a “skinny”girl body in my mind so when I look in the mirror its is honestly sometimes shocking what is looking back at me.


What am I doing wrong?

I was thinking the other day, “I wonder how mountain climbers get through the steepest part of the climb?” The part where you are like, “why did I decide to climb this high of a mountain? Or, is this the part I turn back and go the way I came? Or, if I would have known then what I know now would I have still climbed this mountain?” Can you imagine being on a mountain working really hard to get to a certain spot and looking up and realizing you’re still not at the top of that mountain? And you think you worked hard before? Well then you really need to dig in deep to finish. That’s where I am, digging in deep, trying to find the strength within myself to keep moving forward.

Then I woke up yesterday morning with the song by Chris Tomlin, “I will follow” in my head. The thing is I don’t often listen to that song. I usually listen to Spotify it was never in my playlist (until now). I opened up my daily devotional and the topic for the day was “releasing our destinations,” and the prayer was:

“Lord, where do you want me to be? What plans do You have for my family and loved ones? Let me be in the places and situations that You ordain. Oh Lord, my life is in Your hands. You have a purpose for everything, I rest in Your guidance and provision. Amen.” 

None of these were coincidental but definitely God trying to get my attention. And then the definitive voice that I always hear just when I need it, told me to “Be still.” If you haven’t read my post before, when God tells me to “Be still” he wants me to reflect take a self assessment on how I am trying to do things my way and getting in His way.  When I am trying to follow my own plan and not His; I feel stuck. But I won’t be there much longer or maybe a little longer who knows. I am not going to worry about what my role in this is any longer. I am going to go back to following His lead and try to stay there. The journey is just a lot easier and I am so much stronger when He has all my burdens.  I guess this is one of those stay tuned…..

Have you ever felt stuck? How’d you get unstuck?

19 Comments on “Feeling Stuck”

  1. Excellent!!!! I totally understand feeling stuck. I get unstuck when I totally surrendered this process to God. I gave up control of having to know HOW everything needed to work. I up having to be perfect. This journey has humbled me. Instead of looking at something not working out as failure, I’m learning to see it as another opportunity to try again. It’s not easy. God knows what He’s placed inside of me. He’s just using this journey to help me realize it myself!

  2. Wow! What a story!! Thank you for sharing this with all of us and know that choosing God to go through the process with you will grow you in a way that no others would!

  3. There is freedom in Christ! I do feel stuck when I try to get my own way done, but it is so much more freeing to know that everything happens for a reason and God has everything under His control.

  4. Hey Deb,
    Thanks for sharing part of your story. My family and I are in the process of trying to get unstuck as well. Our story is much different, but we are still feeling very stuck at the moment. Thank you for normalizing “stuck,” and for sharing how prayerful persistence is making a difference. We are trying a similar path–pressing forward and trusting Him. Wishing you a blessed week of gaining momentum toward your goal!

  5. Thanks for sharing your story. I am stuck and feeling a cross between motivated and too tired to put the effort into loosing the weight! I am going to fight through and come out on the other side. I just wish I could get there faster!

  6. Thanks for sharing. I think the one thing that helps me is knowing God is in full control in every expect of our lives. Even when we’re planting seeds to remember we cannot plan and reap a harvest in the same season. There is so much growth taking place within, so our roots are strong and planted in rich soil. Sometimes we believe we are working in God’s strength, but truly it may not be we what He has in store for us at that present moment. This keeps me from getting stuck in the wrong places. Sometimes being stuck is simply us needing to become still. Allowing God to bring things to our attention. Sometimes being stuck is simply giving God the steering wheel vs. making Him the copilot, and asking Him to bless off on our “I wants”.

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